Deep Roots are Not Reached by the Frost

Whew!! What a week. And it's not over yet. I had quite a crazy day yesterday....and when I say crazy I mean I can't remember anything except that I wanted to burst into tears almost all day. I know I had a piano recital, had to be at the High School 'talent show' in order to get credit for choir during my recital, had to teach a piano lesson, revise an English essay, annotate and find meaning in some odd poems, then study for a calculus test with material I hardly understood. And on top of that I had a pounding headache.....and that was just yesterday. :) But even though life almost reached it's max stress level yesterday, I'm so happy right now! Usually I'd be having aftershocks of that much stress and only getting 5 hours of sleep, but I feel so great right now and the only reason for this that I can come up with is that my Heavenly Father loves me. He loves me A LOT. I got help with that Calculus material I hardly understood from my Young Woman l...

I love babies!! Yesterday my cousins came over and one of them is a year old! He's adorable. I got to feed him lunch and talk with him. He only gargles and ba-bas but I can still talk to him. :) He likes to stick his hand in his mouth while there is a bunch of mush in it still and that made it really hard to make sure he was actually getting food down. Half of it probably ended up on his bib/face. While I was feeding him I was eating my lunch with the rest of the cousins....mac and cheese. They were all 10 or under so mac and cheese seemed easy enough for mom to make and I was hungry enough to eat it. Little Adam (the baby) saw me eating and of course since I was eating something different, he wanted it. I tried to give him more of his food but he just put his hand in front of his mouth and scowled at me. Haha. I didn't think he understood as much as he apparently does. So then I gave him a few mac and cheese noodles and he gobbled them right up. Mom suggested I put s...

So normally I wouldn't post two blogs on the same day, but I just feel like writing today!! This post may be a bit of a venting 'session' (do you like that Mom? Haha....*shudder*) so you can stop now if you want to. You probably won't miss much. Have any of you dreaded going onto the next day because you feel like you messed everything up? It's as if you did something you know you were supposed to do, but you did it in a way that was just STUPID.....anyone ever feel like that? Because that's how I feel. That's how I've felt since Thursday night. And what do you do about it? Sometimes if you try to fix it things will just get worse. And I'm pretty sure that would happen to me. Maybe that's just how somethings work and there's no getting around it. You just have to stare at it and hope it dissolves because you can't do anything about it. Maybe you had a great idea and knew you had to implement it....so you did without giving it mu...

I've been thinking about how people sometimes say 'kicking against the pricks'. I like the word 'bricks' better so let's substitute that in for now. With that substitution, it's a saying that lets you know that you won't get anywhere when trying to knock down the wall because who can bring down a brick wall by kicking it? You'll only get hurt and the brick wall will stay standing, towering over you, mocking your misery. Kicking against the brick wall demonstrates someone's level of patience. Here comes another one of my analogies...:) The person who kicks against the brick wall is the one who has no patience to make a plan and prepare to take down the wall bit by bit. They just want whatever is on the other side and think that if they kick hard enough they'll get it. But it creates frustration and pain along with NO progress. The moral behind 'kicking against the bricks' is that a person needs to be patient and calm while dealing...

Today was a very good day and I have to thank the Lord for it. He gives me all my days, and I am always grateful for another day, but today was especially great because the last few have been...not that great. But because I turned to the Lord, pleading, he lifted me up. I guess I just want to say that the Lord really is there. He has it all under control. I more fully understand faith now because I know that. The last few days I've sort of felt like I was walking through the dark, grabbing for His hand. I think I didn't grab it sooner than I would have liked to because I wasn't fully trusting Him, but when I finally gave him all of my trust, I was suddenly pulled up and light filled my room. The church is true. Patriarchal blessings are a gift from the Lord. I'm amazed at how well He knows what is coming, how well he knows me, and that He'll teach us lessons, but give us a little treat after we've done a hard thing with our trust in Him. I love Him. ...

This past week has been tiring, but fun. :) Christmas was a good day because I got to be with my family for most of it and then aunts, uncles, cousins, and grandparents topped it off with a lovely cherry by coming to our house and singing songs, playing games and laughing together. I had a good time. There was this one game we all played called "White Lies" and I must say...I'm a pretty good liar apparently. Most everyone believed I was telling the truth. Even my mother! That surprised me. The way you play is everyone takes a stone out of a bag. If the stone is black you tell the truth....if the stone is white you lie. This is permanent for the whole game. So then there is a box of cards that is passed around and you must answer or tell whatever the cards says too. For example: Who does your laundry? Who do you wish did your laundry? That one would probably be a dead give away for some...like my uncle. He just gave up right then and there. It was funny. One I go...