O the joys of life!
Mi hermana has left on her mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. She will be going to Singapore and speaking Malay! It's all very exciting. :) Her service to the Lord for 18 months will be a tremendous blessing to our family, to her life forever onward, and to all those who come in contact with her during her service. She is a wonderful example of Christ-like love and understanding. I'm not putting her on a pedestal, but I am acknowledging that she is ready to serve the Lord and has prepared wonderfully.
When dropping her off today, we had almost my entire family (Georgia and Ruby had to stay in school), by Aunt Debra and her little baby Truman, my Uncle Joe, Laurel's friend Janice, and her honey as well, Sterling. We all gave her hugs, took pictures with her, and were very calm and ready for what was coming in a few short moments. Once we dropped her off, it felt like nothing had changed. Just another part of life happening. I thought about how it was quite anticlimactic and how I feel hardly any sorrow and unhappiness. Here are my conclusions:
I've gone through this twice before. My best friend leaves and it eventually sinks in that they won't be back for a while. I know from those experiences that life moves forward and the more comfortable with who I am as a person, the easier it is to see them leave me for a while because then I'm not so dependent on what they think of me, but rather, the joy they add to my life because they are comfortable with who they are as well. It will still be hard to not have the support I found in my sister right next to me when I need it most, but that will help me grow more, just like I've grown in the absence of the other two friends who left. When they leave, they bring a different sense of support; one that allows me to develop and progress more individually instead of leaning on them. They support me, but more in my personal growth rather than something to lean on for emotional and mental support. Long story short, I must depend on the Lord more in their absence.
So, since I've gone through this twice before, I know everything will be fine and dandy and I can write to her and our letters of correspondence will be magnificent. :)
I feel only peace and determination now. Peace is a very hard thing to describe. It comes when life is right. It comes when the Lord supports you. It comes when love is great and pain could be almost as great, but the love triumphs and you know everything will be fine. Determination has entered more forcefully into me at this time because now that Laurel is serving the Lord, my family will be blessed for her service and our sacrifice of giving her up for that. I am determined to earn and live worthily of those blessings. I am determined to become better than I've ever been before. I'm determined to make my sister proud of the way I live. I'm determined to prepare for my mission as well as she did. I am determined to grow closer to the Lord. I am determined to make everyday a day of happiness. And that will happen.
When dropping her off today, we had almost my entire family (Georgia and Ruby had to stay in school), by Aunt Debra and her little baby Truman, my Uncle Joe, Laurel's friend Janice, and her honey as well, Sterling. We all gave her hugs, took pictures with her, and were very calm and ready for what was coming in a few short moments. Once we dropped her off, it felt like nothing had changed. Just another part of life happening. I thought about how it was quite anticlimactic and how I feel hardly any sorrow and unhappiness. Here are my conclusions:
I've gone through this twice before. My best friend leaves and it eventually sinks in that they won't be back for a while. I know from those experiences that life moves forward and the more comfortable with who I am as a person, the easier it is to see them leave me for a while because then I'm not so dependent on what they think of me, but rather, the joy they add to my life because they are comfortable with who they are as well. It will still be hard to not have the support I found in my sister right next to me when I need it most, but that will help me grow more, just like I've grown in the absence of the other two friends who left. When they leave, they bring a different sense of support; one that allows me to develop and progress more individually instead of leaning on them. They support me, but more in my personal growth rather than something to lean on for emotional and mental support. Long story short, I must depend on the Lord more in their absence.
So, since I've gone through this twice before, I know everything will be fine and dandy and I can write to her and our letters of correspondence will be magnificent. :)
I feel only peace and determination now. Peace is a very hard thing to describe. It comes when life is right. It comes when the Lord supports you. It comes when love is great and pain could be almost as great, but the love triumphs and you know everything will be fine. Determination has entered more forcefully into me at this time because now that Laurel is serving the Lord, my family will be blessed for her service and our sacrifice of giving her up for that. I am determined to earn and live worthily of those blessings. I am determined to become better than I've ever been before. I'm determined to make my sister proud of the way I live. I'm determined to prepare for my mission as well as she did. I am determined to grow closer to the Lord. I am determined to make everyday a day of happiness. And that will happen.
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