That unsatisfied emptiness
Sister Eliza R. Snow said that the Holy Ghost "satisfies and fills up every longing of the human heart, and fills up every vacuum. When I am filled with that Spirit," she continued, "my soul is satisfied, and I can say in good earnest, that the trifling things of the day do not seem to stand in my way at all. But just let me lose my hold of that spirit and power of the Gospel, and partake of the spirit of the world, in the slightest degree, and trouble comes; there is something wrong. I am tired, and what will comfort me? You cannot impart comfort to me that will satisfy the immortal mind, but that which comes from the Fountain above. And is it not our privilege to so live that we can have this constantly flowing into our souls?" - Daughters in My Kingdom, Ch. 4, pp. 46
It's astonishing the number of times I "partake of the spirit of the world, in the slightest degree," which then puts me in a fowl mood at times or makes me simply "tired, and what will comfort me?" Nothing, really. That tiredness just eats me up sometimes and I have no desire to do anything. Then once my afternoon is gone and I judge it as not productive, I get even more tired or discouraged and continue in my loathing state. "You cannot impart comfort to me" except through "that which comes from the Fountain above." If I could just pick up the Book of Mormon a little more frequently, or get on my knees a few more times, things would improve drastically - they have in the past!
How many times have I had Heavenly Father wrap his arms around me and lift me up to heights that let me shine? How did I get back down into the canyon bottom whereas before I was up on the peak with such joy?
Oh, that's right. I got distracted by "fun" and neglected that which matters most: the Lord. Let's reroute and get back on course this week, si?
Thanks for the reminder Sister Snow and for letting me know it happens to you too. :)
Later on in the same chapter she says the following: "Let your first business be to perform your duties at home. But, inasmuch as you are wise stewards, you will find time for social duties, because these are incumbent upon us as daughters and mothers in Zion. By seeking to perform every duty you will find that your capacity will increase, and you will be astonished at what you can accomplish.” (pp. 59)
It's simply a matter of going to work. Getting up and taking a step toward anything. If I put the most important things first, everything else will follow.
It's astonishing the number of times I "partake of the spirit of the world, in the slightest degree," which then puts me in a fowl mood at times or makes me simply "tired, and what will comfort me?" Nothing, really. That tiredness just eats me up sometimes and I have no desire to do anything. Then once my afternoon is gone and I judge it as not productive, I get even more tired or discouraged and continue in my loathing state. "You cannot impart comfort to me" except through "that which comes from the Fountain above." If I could just pick up the Book of Mormon a little more frequently, or get on my knees a few more times, things would improve drastically - they have in the past!
How many times have I had Heavenly Father wrap his arms around me and lift me up to heights that let me shine? How did I get back down into the canyon bottom whereas before I was up on the peak with such joy?
Oh, that's right. I got distracted by "fun" and neglected that which matters most: the Lord. Let's reroute and get back on course this week, si?
Thanks for the reminder Sister Snow and for letting me know it happens to you too. :)
Later on in the same chapter she says the following: "Let your first business be to perform your duties at home. But, inasmuch as you are wise stewards, you will find time for social duties, because these are incumbent upon us as daughters and mothers in Zion. By seeking to perform every duty you will find that your capacity will increase, and you will be astonished at what you can accomplish.” (pp. 59)
It's simply a matter of going to work. Getting up and taking a step toward anything. If I put the most important things first, everything else will follow.
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