Deep Breaths the Lord Gives Me

Whew!! What a week. And it's not over yet. I had quite a crazy day yesterday....and when I say crazy I mean I can't remember anything except that I wanted to burst into tears almost all day. I know I had a piano recital, had to be at the High School 'talent show' in order to get credit for choir during my recital, had to teach a piano lesson, revise an English essay, annotate and find meaning in some odd poems, then study for a calculus test with material I hardly understood. And on top of that I had a pounding headache.....and that was just yesterday. :) But even though life almost reached it's max stress level yesterday, I'm so happy right now! Usually I'd be having aftershocks of that much stress and only getting 5 hours of sleep, but I feel so great right now and the only reason for this that I can come up with is that my Heavenly Father loves me. He loves me A LOT.

I got help with that Calculus material I hardly understood from my Young Woman leader....who happens to be a Calculus teacher!! It saved me. And even though I was cramming information in at 10:00 p.m. with her, because I put that effort in and because I was pleading with Heavenly Father to help me remember, I did all right. I tired my hardest on all of the homework in this chapter, and that was probably part of it. I've been working hard to understand this whole time, and Heavenly Father let me struggle and grapple around for a while. Even on the test! I felt Him with me, but it was more of a prodding me on to keep up with the test problems...to not give up. So I pushed myself to get through that hour and a half. When I finished I just wanted to turn it in and not look over anything...I just wanted to get it away from me. But.....I didn't. And I'm so glad I didn't because that's when the Holy Ghost brought things to my remembrance. After me trying my best, after me trying to do everything I could, then he stepped in and said, "Maybe you should look at that one again." So I did. It was one I had to guess on earlier. I had no idea why I wasn't getting a right answer but when I tried it again I did something that got me an answer on the multiple choice. I still don't know if it was right, but it got me closer than before. I know I got an A on half of the test because I checked my grade and then a B+ on the second half. And I only got that because He was with me. I'm just so glad I'm calm and happy.....because I know Heavenly Father loves me. I'm so grateful for this gospel and the support I can find with in it. Not only from my Heavenly Father, but from those who lead it, and those who lead me. Thank you Molly! You really really did make such a difference on the outcome of that test. I love you!