The Lord is stronger

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People say that Satan works harder on you once you've got your mission call.  I can attest to this.

BUT.

The Lord also works harder WITH you once you've got your mission call.  I can attest to this even more.

A lot of things happen because I'm human, make stupid decisions, let my temper get the best of me, act selfishly...etc.  Those things definitely still happen.  Satan, I feel, has been making those weaknesses more prominent in my life, it seems.  As I've realized that, I've also more fervently said my prayers and more diligently read my scriptures.

That has made all the difference!

This week...oh man oh man oh man.  It certainly wasn't a "hardest" week, but it was a hard week. Mostly because my own thoughts plagued judgement upon the world.  And those judgements ate away at my insides.

Last night and this morning I prayed, pleading for help in this.  During my morning prayer I knew what I needed to do and that was to trust the Lord.  He's got this and I don't need to judge others with what they are or aren't doing because that's the Lord's job.  I just have to love them and move forward with things.  The Lord will take care of me even though it seems like I'm leaving behind almost every hope for what I want.

The magical part, though? If I hope for 100 things, and I leave behind 99 because that's what the Lord has asked, that means that 1 hope will bring me 1000 more things to hope for in the future.  And I'm clinging to the 1 hope that my mission will help me become the mother I need to be.

Those days I dwell on the 99 hopes I must leave behind for now are the days I have the hardest time, and this week I've dwelt on them a lot.  Tomorrow will be better though and I will not pine-I will leap forward with energy and get to work!

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  1. LindseyJanuary 26, 2013 at 8:04 PM

    You are awesome and you can do it! I can't wait to see how even MORE awesome you are after your mission. Only three more months!!!

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