Shut down

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AP tests are almost here. The most terrible week of music is almost over. I don't know if I have it in me to endure much more emotionally, mentally, physically, spiritually. There's about a month of school left and.....I don't think I can make it. And not making it means being grumpy all the time, hardly sociable, lots of headaches from crying, my friends not wanting to be around me, my family getting irritated with me, me getting more and more confused.......I feel hopeless right now. Why do people have to do things that make it harder?? Can I push my way through everything? The only way I know of doing that is shut down all emotion and not let anything out. I've kind of been doing that the past few days....do I keep with it and get through this last month?

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