Practicing for Heaven

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So I haven't really written anything of much importance to me lately.  Yeah, new music is fun to find, and crazy schedules are thrilling to get through, but they're not all that important.  A bit reason for me not writing is that I don't want to get it wrong.  Heavenly Father has been such a tremendous part of my life these past few weeks and I fear that if I write it down I won't be correct in my relating the experiences, so I just sit there with an uneasy feeling, knowing I should write.  And then I go to bed without writing in my journal, feeling like a failure because I was unable to dictate to my journal or blog what I've been learning and experiencing. 

There were so many things I should have written down, but haven't and now have forgotten.  I KNEW that would happen, but for some reason I didn't care.  I regret that now. 

I shall now do my best to communicate this one overarching idea that I haven't recorded from the past few weeks: My Heavenly Father loves me, cares about me, and will not leave me.  I am here on this earth to act on that understanding and then help those around me learn of that as well.  I have been sent to this earth to progress and learn.  I have been sent here so that once I am on good footing with the Lord, I can be an instrument in His hands to help others.  I know I can do that if I seek His guidance and listen to the promptings of the Spirit - and that includes writing in my journal when prompted...

As I accept my weaknesses but don't let them define me, the Lord can take those and improve me.  I have A LOT of weaknesses, but I can also do A LOT of good despite those weaknesses.  I'll just keep trying to do good and I'll continue working on my weakness.  I sure feels good when you realize you've been an instrument in the Lord's hands!

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